I've got a job just today! I'm gonna be relief teaching in Seng Kang Primary School starting next monday morning. I'd be just like a teacher, just with lesser pay. Oh well I'll like it still, i believe. I've just got red earphones yesterday! It's RED! Goes with my bag and my psp. This is so random. I so don't know what else to say.

That's it for now I guess. :D

1. I got my rejection letters for ALL my applications, meaning NUS, NTU and NIE. WOW! I've appealed for NUS and NTU, only to realize that if I appeal for english in NTU, I can't appeal for BArts (education). Oh, whatever. I feel like I'm prepared to wait another year before I get to slave my ass off studying again. I don't feel particularly upset, just indifferent. I've been exercising my brain with sudoku, crossword puzzles, bridge, scrabble and novels.

2. If you people remember my lovely hamsters, I have tragic news to share. Wendy is fine and dandy, still healthy, alive and kicking. Joy has swells on her left lip and her left hand. The swell on her hand is quite small but the one on her lip is giving her lots of trouble eating. Fatty Gwen's fur is shedding like the other time, only that this time her bottoms are suffering as well. Oh but she's is still the usual buddha poise gwenny. Now, jillian, she is the villain, her right leg swelled so big that she can't groom properly and she limps everywhere! We don't even dare to pick her up, fearing it might worsen the condition. I notice all these 3 days ago. I think that joy looks particularly sad despite her name, Gwenny's balding seems to have stopped and Jillian's leg looks better. Then again, it feels like all the good news are self-deceiving. Why didn't we bring them to the vet? Cos I'm flat broke. I don't even have money to bring for camp or whatever. For my hamsters, unless they can live another 365 days without pain or discomfort, I want them to die soon. It's too painful to watch them live like this.

3. I haven't been sleeping or eating well, everyone around me seem sick, in pain or something. There's absolutely little things to be happy about. When I sleep, I dream, mundane, positive or negative contents. So when I wake up, it feels like I haven't slept. GRRRR. I'm feeling miserable and sometimes it seems like there is nothing to hope for. I've stopped expecting because when I expect, nothing happens, the disappointment grieves me. So when I don't expect, there is nothing to be disappointed about. I need a miracle which isn't looking like it's coming anytime soon. RAWR!